I’m depressed.I’ve got the same old nagging headache.I feel so heavy,Like someone just dropped in a few tonnes of lead inside me and corked the head back.I’m listening to sad songs.Doesn’t help a bitter.This is what people mean by missing someone I guess.Supriti vacated the hostel today. I knew this was coming,I always knew this was coming.I’ve been so successfully avoiding her for the past couple of months.Just to make sure that surviving in the hostel without her wouldn’t be an impossibility.I went into her room today morning,sat there for quite some time saying nothing.Took a mirrored bag full of coloured angles from you,and yes I’ll dance.And got up and left.I know she came knocking on my door before she left,I didnot open.I hate saying goodbye.It just makes the fact that she’s going away is for real.Reality always continues to ruin everything. I’ll miss the way you scream “A-TTENDAAAAAANCE”,i’ll miss the way you look sideways,I’ll miss walking around in silence with you,I’ll miss your green night dress with the bird foetus picture on it.I’ll miss all those times you got me out of shit.I’ll miss watching stupid movies with you,I’ll miss sleeping on your bed,I’ll miss kicking you down on the floor,I’ll miss all those times I talked you into and out of things.Most importantly I’ll miss You,the idea of You. You must be home now,busy unpacking,hugging your mom and bro and sis.Ad I’m too chicken to even call you,ask you how you are,and yes,I know you won’t come back to Mumbai. I’ll get used to this,I’ll get used to your absence.This too shall pass. Shreya is soon to leave before 9. The day is too long,too long,too long.
